It started with an idea

Monday, October 26, 2009

Each of us encountered this idea at some point in our young lives. It was the idea that there was so much more to this world than what the eye could behold. And so we searched for what that was...the ever elusive mystery. We found that the more we tried to uncover this mystery, there was more to be found. And at one point we discovered that for a brief moment, we were immortal. We resided in the ether for just a short time and then it was gone...

Gone.

We tried to find that mystery again....we searched for that power that held us above the others as perfection in the flesh. But it was gone. Only for brief moments along the way did we see glimpses of it and wondered, could this be the source? But it wasn't. We reveled in the thoughts....and then let them go like butterflies chasing the wind.

We lost our way as we caved under the pressure of having the dream force fed to us. Some of us held on....we held closely to our hearts the memory....playing out the role of this place like actors upon the stage...gracefully hoping it would all come to an end and one day soon, the curtain call would give us relief. Then we could go home, kick off our shoes and shut reason out.

I've let it linger inside me.....held tightly to the hope of finding the source again......but one day....not so long ago....I let it all go. I let go of my hope of ever finding that source, I let go of hoping to have the drama end. I found that I was surrendering to the fire of the dream and all I could hope for was that I'd be so oblivious to it that the death of the idea would come quick and painlessly. It was when I let it all go, surrendered my will, that I was found by source itself and it brought with it a gift.....a reminder.

Here is my message to those who are still hoping for a glimpse...for those who have yet found it....and for those who have crossed with me over and over again....

I forgive you for all things past, present and future. I release you of any bind that may have tied us together. May you go forth and find exactly what you are meant to find and may source bring to you your mission in time for our reunion.

Go forth now and spread this message.....you have to start by letting go, forgiving....allow your hearts to open up....trust me...trust yourself. There is more to come.

Namaste my friends.

And then.......

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Murk said it was because Mal and AP tried to kill him off but the truth is....this place ain't been anything without some little girl throwing out big words words like "tumultuous". Well, here I am.

I (formerly known as "just me") have been on massive hiatus as you all know. Now...Doc Murk won't dare tell my secrets because I have paid him not to and he knows I know where he lives. Thus, no one really knows what I have been doing or why I suddenly went cold....no trail...just silence. Well...you don't need to worry about where I've been. Just welcome me home like you would any pet and feed me your bleeding heart. Okay?

Alright, let me give you something that is WoW worthy.

I've been researching a lot of shit (and playing with my "happy aquarium" on Facebook - seriously). For awhile there, I was losing my fucking mind with what I had been researching. My research took me traveling to places I had never been to and meeting people I could never have imagined meeting. This has been one crazy ass year!

And then.....amongst it all.....it happened......IT......HAPPEND. Suffice to say....I haven't been the same since. Okay, sure....you guys are going to say I'm nuts....or I'm screwing around.....but I'm being dead serious right now.

I had the kundalini awakening followed directly by a full blown chakra openning and it lasted for WEEKS....not seconds...not minutes...WEEKS. Since then, I have been tapped into universal knowledge and entities beyond ordinary "reality" - if you can call it that, I've been given access to information about what is going to happen in 2012, the demise of the current civil structure and how the new civilization should live, I've been given the ability to heal....but it's 100 x's stronger then before, I've been reconnected to Spirit in a way that is in divine perfection with the universal order and I found out that if we're not going to wake up anytime soon, we can pretty much kiss our asses good bye. I've been reconnected to a very key element from my past that is vital to my future, I've had several "coincidental" happenings that have furthered my faith, and by the grace of God, I've been liberated from my previous physical limitations.

I'm exhausted......I'm weary on my road.......I have so much that needs to be told here and now. But I need to sleep......

For now........I'm calling my brothers out........it's time to gather on the Hill.
~Em